So something exists we label as God, but what is it?

So by looking at what I think the world would be like without the existence of God, I think the fact that the world is NOT like this is enough proof that there is certainly a much higher power and a creator. However, we did not cover creation, so let's look at that first, and then see if it is possible to describe God.

Creation is one of the things for which we may not be developed enough as a species to really understand. It seems to me to be an ultimate paradox. There must have been a creation, since things don't order themselves. Science has presented plenty of believable evidence that this universe, indeed, had a beginning. However, did all of existence have a beginning? Well, the current shape of existence certainly must have, but if you consider the scientific axiom that both matter and energy are conserved within existence, all that does exist always did exist. It just changed form. I won't even try to answer the further question that always comes up about the nature of "nothing". "Nothing" just simply never existed and never will.

So where is God in all of this? He is in all of it. In fact, perhaps, He Is All of it. Maybe that very first point of existence was God, and maybe He existed always. Time began when He became whatever He is now, maybe sentient and Self aware. Time is another of the physics paradoxes that we may never really understand. Does it exist outside of our ability to measure it? The whole concept of time is linear, and so cannot be infinite. God invented time. From what did He fashion it? How did He measure it? Why did He need it? I cannot answer any of these, though I will make a stab at them later. Meanwhile, let us just agree that God invented time and that it only exists as long as some intelligence perceives it.

So God woke up from an eternal sleep or internal monologue or maybe even an internal dialogue with separate persons created within Himself, and found Himself alone in the void. It was dark, cold and empty until He expanded it and created whatever started the current universe in which we live. We have no way of knowing the physics of existence at that time, though some of the brave scientific minds are attempting to find answers. Maybe existence was all matter and God was all energy. Perhaps all that matter was then contained within an infinitely dense singularity within the antimatter void and God might have been an extremely concentrated energy or one the was spread out and permeated everything. And then He thought, and what He thought became reality, and the universe began to expand from its point of origin.

So now there was God, and some very interesting "things" happening. He probably took eons to watch it and it is possibly His energy that keeps order within it. That energy may actually be one kind of energy which we have yet to discover. Some people have discovered it, but no scientists have been able to prove its existence, any more than they have been able to prove the existence of God. Astrologers may be closer than most, measuring the Energy we cannot see by means of measuring its waves. It would follow then that it is not the stars and other heavenly bodies that influence us, but rather it is the same energy that governs them which does. It is like measuring the physical characteristics of a pond and a stone by measuring the rings of waves made by dropping the stone into the pond from a measured distance.

So how is it that all God had to do was to think to make things happen. Ah, maybe that is His nature. I have often seen the dice on a lively craps table behave erratically when there was a lively crowd. They will roll and look like they will fall on seven and then suddenly tip again and land on another number. Is this because all those people were "thinking" about the same thing? I cannot prove telekinesis to anyone else, but I have seen enough "unexplainable" things to believe it works, though no human has much control over it. It could be that we occasionally tap into that source of power and strange things happen.

So what if God did not exist?

I have tried the question of the existence of God from the angle of positive proof and negative disproof of His non-existence, and come to the conclusion that no matter which way I go, I cannot sufficiently prove His existence to anyone who does not want to believe. Perhaps that is by design, and I will consider that possibility later. Right now I want to look at how existence would work if there were no God.

First let us define God as both creator and controller of existence. The question of to what extent begs answering eventually, but, for now, let us just define Him/Her/Them as the Creator(s) and Maintainer(s) of existence, and consider the possibility that They ultimately comprise all of existence as a viable theory. We shall also here-after refer to God as "He" for convenience, though we will also tackle the truth of that pronoun eventually. First, let us consider what this existence would be like without God? Then we can look at the reality and see if that description fits.

First of all, if existence were simply a random accident, would not that very existence be also random and with random and changing rules? Random means without design, motive or purpose. Can anything be without design, motive or purpose? I look now at what I like to call the "Butterfly Principal" (I stole that term from some other writer). The essence of this principal is that everything we do has effects so far reaching as to be quite unimaginable, using our current brains, down generations and possibly some day across galaxies, and that any act, no matter how small, has the possibility within it to change the universe or even all of existence. I have tried to follow the possible progression of one smile or one sharp word with "if-then" reasoning, and concluded that I will always run up against the infinity of time and space. I cannot begin to even imagine how much future there is, let alone what it will be. Our brains are finite, and can only really understand, or perhaps only express the understanding, of that which is also finite.

However, even though I cannot predict or even dream of the actual ramifications of the butterfly principal, I try to live by it, because it seems a consistent way for judging my own actions. So why do I care? Without the existence of God, would any sentient being care about the future? Without God, self interest would surely be the driving force in this world. However, if that were so, perhaps self interest would drive us to invent God in order to prevent utter chaos, or either mass murder or mass suicide. But, is self interest enough?

To be sure, self interest is a powerful force, but once intellect comes into play it is not enough for most people, not even those who are the top dogs at the time. Witness the French Revolution or World War II Germany. There were countless people who sacrificed even their own lives to protect the oppressed. Some of these people were even rich and powerful. Why did they do that? Does that not totally refute self interest? Even if you consider that "better world" that they wanted for their progeny, there is no evidence that any of these people ever tried to guarantee the survival of their own any more than that of total strangers whom they knew to be oppressed.

It seems that we humans need structure and purpose. We need rules. If we cannot find them, then we invent them. Chaos is frightening and we constantly strive to order everything. In fact, without this ordering we cannot even think. Is thinking possible without order? Not with our brains. We currently do not control enough brain power to maintain order in the face of chaos, let alone impose it. Now if you look at existence, it is apparrent that everything tends to chaos, but when that happens, it destroys. Most of what we know to exist demands order. Even the power to "know" demands order. Since the universe tends to chaos, we can assume it does not order itself. Yet, order does exist. There are those who would claim that we invented God, but nobody can even begin to postulate that we, poor creatures that we are, created order.

In the Beginning there was.....

Ok, so what was there, what is there now and what does it all mean?

I think better when I write, so this is the answer to answering the questions I have or deciding that I cannot do so. Of course, I expect I will probably come up with more questions than answers, but maybe doing this will clear some of the cobwebs. Anyway I will use this lovely space to amuse myself and, perhaps, bore everyone else, or not. I like to think that those things which interest me are interesting also to others.

There are so many questions we, as a civilization or many civilizations struggling to coexist, are trying to answer. The more important the question the more different answers you will hear about and the less likely it is that even two or three people randomly selected from a crowd will agree on the answer, unless, of course, they choose, "I don't know."

What are the IMPORTANT questions?

1. Why does anything exist?
2. Why do we exist?
3. Does God exist?
4. How large is the universe?
5. Can we ever see it all?
6. What happens after death?
7. Why were we born on this planet at this time?
8. Is there a plan for anything?
9. If there is a plan, can we change it?
10. If there is a plan and we change it, what are the consequences?
11. Why do things work the way they do, especially as concerns the apparrent unfairness of the universe, or at least of life on this planet?
12. What is the best way to live our lives?
13. Does any of this matter?